Corrupted by Convenience

More. Optimise. In Summer. Be. On. Show

Constantly wanting to harvest, in Autumn, reaping what we sow 

What happens to the other seasons that are getting skipped?

Parts of our humanity and planet stolen, starved, stripped  

Corrupted by Convenience, looking for the easy way

Has led to paths that may be leading us astray 

"Do it this way, save more time, look younger, be better" 

Everything comes at a cost, so who is paying the debt collector?

Debts of skipped processes, rushing through seasons missed

Winter and Spring waiting to be added back on to the list 

Winter, the pause in the dark, can seem like an unwanted place to be 

But if understood and experienced correctly, can uncover depth to what we see 

Spring, taking time to create strong foundations for seeds to take root 

In a world that wants fast results now, it can be hard to compute 

Systems are made up of individuals who have a choice to make

Will we change our trajectory for our people and our planet's sake? 

Throughout my life so far, I seem to have been in a race that no one told my brain or body about. 

Rushing to get the next achievement. Constantly seeking the next milestone. Looking for the next dopamine hit of that ticked box.

Last year life hit me with a reset. Left questioning all the goals I had thought were important to me. 

I had the house. I had the ring. I had the job. I had the life. 

When it all went up in smoke. I was left with myself and my reflection. 

Even though I could have had so many things to be scared about. The scariest thing was, I didn't recognise the person staring back at me. 

I seemed to have been sleeping. Chasing a dream that had been planted in my brain a long time ago. 

It wasn't until I took the time to pause in the dark. That I had a chance to hear my own voice again. 

In our fast paced world the expectations are very real. We have deadlines. We have bills. We have mouths to feed. It can be easy for our voice to get drowned out in all that noise. Overwhelmed by doing. 

The more I have taken time to slow down this year the more I have realised how addicted my body is to doing. 

Even when it has nowhere to go or nowhere to be. I sometimes catch my mind going 100 miles a minute creating scenarios that put my nervous system into overdrive. Planning the next thing I need to do. Rushing to the next made up meeting. Constantly creating hoops to jump through even when I could just be being. 

Yes our world is chaotic at times but what I have noticed is. When our nervous system is so use to chaos it can be hard to accept calm. So in the moments where calm does come in our day we can fill it with chaos because it is what we are use to. 

This honestly has blown my mind. Why would I sabotage good things? Why would my body, that wants to protect me, choose the very thing that is going to cause me pain? 

Our neural pathways feed on familiarity. So it seems if we want our external world to accept calm we need our internal worlds to accept calm. 

There are many pros to the world we currently live in, I myself benefit from so much of the convenience our world has created. However, I can't help but notice the more we create products and platforms that 'save us time' we seem to be filling that time up with even more stuff. 

Last year made me question, what is the stuff?  

I suppose I am still questioning that. All I do know is there is more to life than what I thought I had to do, had to achieve, had to get. And it was the darkness that allowed me to explore that. 

The Winter that we can so often want to rush through because it can feel uncomfortable. Is what brought me back to life and allowed me to feel and appreciate the sun again. 

The natural cycle of life goes through seasons. Some more comfortable that others. Instead of skipping seasons because we want to always stay comfortable or 'productive'. How might we learn to appreciate what the seasons show us at different times in our life? How might we set up our systems to harness the power that each season can bring? 

I think I have more questions than answers at this stage. 

One answer I do have is The Breath. Practicing the Pause even in our busy days can help create moments of space within the chaos. Building new pathways that can help us connect back with ourselves so that we can truly connect with others. 

This was a bit confronting and a little bit sad for me to begin with because it made me realise how long I had been neglecting myself and how much that had been impacting my relationship with the world around me. 

The more I reconnect to long lost parts of myself, the more I feel myself coming back online and even though it can be confronting it can also feel exciting. Learning who I am again. Not trying to be someone else. 

Remembering me.

Let's see where the world takes us tomorrow 🌎