Through the Threshold

 

“The start is the end, the end is the start”

Sometimes life passes you by. Other times big things happen that feel like you are on the cusp of something that will change your life forever.

Letting go of the old. Moving through the threshold into the new.

This isn’t always all smiles and laughter. A lot of times it can bring apprehension and fear of the unknown that is beckoning you forward.

Maybe starting a new job, launching a new idea, changing your hair colour, getting married, grief, telling someone how you feel, having a baby, going a different route to work, owning a house, loss, signing a contract, meeting new people, using a different font in your email signature, moving country…. The list goes on.

Some of these things might seem bigger than others but they are all relative to each person’s individual threshold.

I’ve moved through a few of these this year. And it’s weird, each time I move through a threshold, that becomes my new norm and I forget that I was once apprehensive about the thing I have now gotten use to.

I have a couple of thresholds I am moving through at the moment personally and professionally... 

One of them being, at the end of March, I officially went full time on my business Soshi Emoshi: The Social Emotional Gym. Meaning all my income, mortgage funds, life essentials will be channeled through me, myself and I moving forward.

That thought is exciting and nerve racking all at the same time.

On one side, one of the biggest thoughts I have had is “Who am I to be doing this?” And on the other, “Why not me? Why not now?”

Moving through this threshold, realising two things can be true at once. Makes me reflect on my past experiences, noticing how much can happen in a short period of time and how the first point of call is taking a leap of faith into the unknown.

Taking the leap of faith, moving to London 21years old, starting my first teaching job, took me on an adventure of a lifetime.

Taking the leap of faith moving to NZ, Aotearoa, the other side of the world, took me on an adventure of a life time.

Taking the leap of faith getting in a cage, having an MMA fight, took me on an adventure of a lifetime.

Taking the leap of faith moving to Japan by myself during COVID, took me on the adventure of a life time.

Taking the leap of faith quitting my job, buying a one way ticket to Bali, took me on the adventure of a lifetime.

Each of those times basically every part of my body told me not to do it, fear blocking my footsteps. But each time, the call forward through the threshold was stronger than the fear, lulling me back.

Those experiences gave me concussion, migraines, sickness, heartbreak, body rashes as well as meeting the most amazing people, seeing the most amazing places waiting on the other side.

Two things can be true at once.

Part of me is terrified putting myself out there. Scared sharing because it is a big part of me. The real me. So the mind comes out to play wee tricks. Then the other part of me is excited about what could come and knows it's not about me at all, it's about the idea that if we put our minds to it, we can be part of something bigger than ourselves....

And I suppose like any new experience, all we can do is the best we can with the tools we have until we know better and trust the rest unfolds as it is meant to….

Who knows what this next phase will bring… All I know is that it starts with the leap.

Let’s see where the world takes us tomorrow 🌎