Life in Colour

 🎨✨Life in Colour✨🎨

For a while, 
Life inside was pretty dark

Recently, with people and places, 
I’m finding my spark 

For a while,
I could only see in black and white 

Beginning to see life in colour again 
Getting brand new sight 

I was afraid for a while 
The switch was off for good 

Now I’m beginning 
to feel less misunderstood 

People can wear pain,
spreading darkness that can destroy 

My body starting to learn 
Life is safe now to enjoy 

Letting down the wall 
That was intended to protect 

Because if I keep it up 
My pain will inflict and project 

Opening up to 
New paths of possibility 

Allowing myself to 
Enjoy creating this new reality 

———————

This year I’ve been hurt pretty bad. And the hurt brought up more hurt I was suppressing for years. 

Last week was a big one. Lots of different adventures all rolled into a few days. 


One of the stand out parts for me was the Rally for Women's Safety in Derry at the Guildhall. 

What a turn out!    

Some of the stats they shared at the rally were 85 - 90% of woman know their abusers. And 98% of women experience some sort of mental, emotional, sexual or physical abuse in their lives. 

Madness! 

Some of my closest friends have daughters of their own now and recently we have been talking about our own experiences growing up. Some of us have experienced abuse, others say it’s sad when they say “I’m lucky I have not been abused.”

My own life experiences make me passionate about this topic. And about the need for changing patterns and perspectives around how we raise young people today no matter what their gender. 

The current system hasn’t been working for many people across the board. Things that happened to me in my past and this year I believe are all intertwined. All related to my own self worth and self beliefs. 

I believe the mental health crisis today is very much connected to the systems we live in and the environment we are surrounded by. 

Which is why, even though I have started this week’s blog on a heavy note. I am actually really excited to be part of groups and see people online and offline exploring how we might change the conversation and shift the needle so that we can create systemic shift around the mental health conversation for all. 



Exploring my heritage in Malta this week has made me reflect on all the events that have happened in the lives of our lineage to get us to where we are today. The bad and the good. 

In generations gone by, up until recently, life was very different for all involved and this has had an impact on the society we live in. 

For me, it creates an understanding for why we are where we are and if we look at it through different lenses it can actually give us tools for change. 

My Great Great Grandfather left this tiny island in the 1800s. How has the world changed since he lived in it? He didn’t get to return here ever again after reaching Ireland. 


“Getting on with it.” Repressing. Fractured nervous systems have been a product of historical norms. 

Now we have the chance to create more regulated internal and external systems moving forward. 

Learning the knowledge and skills to release what has been weighing us down so that we can live more resourceful, connected lives. 

I wouldn’t wish some of my experiences on my worst enemy but to be honest my darkness has been some of my biggest learnings. This year has opened my eyes to so much and while I do say at times, being blissfully unaware can be nice, I am very glad this year has given me the chance to start to release the emotional baggage I’ve been carrying around for a very long time. 

There are still a few wee shadows lurking and I’m sure as I continue on this life I will keep learning how to process things hiding in the dark. 

I am under no illusion that this world still has a lot of darkness. But I am excited that in certain places the narrative around how we look after ourselves and how we look after others is shifting. 

There are lots of different strokes for different folks on how people choose to process. For me, Breathwork and Meditation were game changers on this path. So I’m excited to continue to create spaces with The Whole Human Hub to support shifting the needle. 

The world was pretty dark inside my head for a long time. I’m really excited to be seeing life in all its different colours again. 

Let’s see where the world takes us tomorrow 🌏

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